Do I want to have it all?

There's been an interesting thread on one of my SMC lists about the need for physical intimacy when you're a single mom. It's ironic since I'd just had two separate conversations about this with two of my SMC friends. We all seemed to be of the same mind, that while it would be nice to have a companion, someone to snuggle with a little, to go out with occasionally, to have some good sex, but that more than that, we just didn't feel up to it. I honestly don't know how some single moms date and find new partners, it just seems like way too much work to me. Between a full-time job, taking care of a young child and trying to fit it in a little time for myself, where would the time be to give to someone else? I think I would resent the loss of time for myself and to Brendan far more than I would enjoy having the partnership. I would like to have someone, but on my terms and when I find it convenient. Uh, not exactly the good basis for a relationship. Or maybe a nice long distance relationship would work. Lots of good passionate talk and periodic encounters. Hmmmm.....

What's also interesting is that I don't even feel like this is something I've resigned myself to. I just feel that it's the way it is and I'm okay with it. What I don't know though is if that's liberating or depressing or a little of both.